As the title states my birthday is on the 9th and I haven't achieved anything with my life. I am still in community college, keep failing making a resume/cover letter, am still struggling in school, and overall haven't progressed with my life...

Sure I have been achieving things outside of academics. I've learned some cool new boxing skills/combos, am currently practicing being a southpaw, made some maps for my favorite game and posted it, refined some techniques...that's about it.

I have really just been struggling to do basic algebra and played games in my free time and that makes me depressed.

Yeah I know I should be "doing more" and all that but...I feel disappointed...

I tried to at least set myself up to get a job but couldn't figure out how to write a resume or cover letter...so many templates and so little direction. I tried contacting the military to join but I don't know how far that will go. I just haven't done anything noteworthy this year and that makes me sad...

I have no direction and no where to go due to lack of qualifications...

I really hate the advice to just "hang in there" or someone's comments blaming me for my misfortunes. Yeah I know it's my fault-you don't have to rub it in.

I just want to know what I can do to change this predicament. I don't want to be stuck in the same place forever. And I doubt I can finish in a timely manner...in fact I'm way late on finishing already to begin with.,,

I just want to start my life-start a job or something...anyways thanks for listening to my rant.

Oh who would've thought another sermon from me. So here's part 2 of my rant. If you want to see part 1 click here!

Anyways. Yet again I have come into contact with people who think martial arts means that you need to be able to kick someone's ass to be a martial artist. How fun.

But there are spiritual aspects of martial arts that are practiced. I don't know what those are but I assume it has to do with positive attitudes or something.

Anyways this may be the last post about martial arts for a while because wow. I am so tired of the meatriders talking about "You're not a martial artist if xyz." It has to be physical type VS.

Before someone comments something. I do martial arts myself-and yes it's mostly the physical aspects of it but damn. That doesn't mean I won't note down that if you practice the spiritual or mental side of it you aren't a martial artist.

The point is if you practice a martial art that isn't 100% physical violence I would still call you a martial artist.

That includes stuff like Tai Chi, Iaido, Bagua, Kendo, and believe it or not even Shao lin Kung Fu has a non violent side to it.

If you are one of those meatriders talking out your ass about how all martial arts are violent. You are ignorant and annoying. Seriously. I hate dealing with this everytime I bring up what "martial arts" means to someone.

So I'm retaking a required class about Ethical/Legal Concerns. The problem is the textbook is so long and boring. It is talking about my reactions and other people's reactions and serving people and what is considered right and wrong in the "profession".

But it's SO boring and very wordy. I don't think I'd say "difficult" but more "devils in the details". The book is basically saying "this is 'right' and this is 'wrong'" and wow. I get tired of reading after a couple paragraphs. It's just so long, tedious, and ultimately boring. I'm surprised I even managed to read for 2 hours...although not very effective considering I can't even remember most of what I read.

I tried taking some notes but at the rate I am going at I'll have 100 pages and it would be a waste of time/energy.

How can I "read" the book or even get interested in it? Any advice?

So I've been listening to Katy Perry for about 2 weeks now. 11 days to be exact. I wondered what her style is. According to google she does what is called as "camp" music. From what I read it sounds like it's a form of irony/satire. However when I looked up a definition of it seems so...general to me?

My main point is what the hell is camp music? What constitutes it? What is it's sound? And I mean from multiple artists' perspectives-not just Katy Perry. I want to listen to the genre more. Any suggestions for artists to listen to?

A random Native American song from childhood popped up in my head. Unfortunately I don't remember the title. I THINK it was by the Learning Company? It definitely came from an educational CD...

I remember the chorus having the lyrics "Shí Naashá" although it sounded like a lullaby.

Was it Huckleberry Finn in the lyrics? The second line of the chorus was "(Someone) hiding away in the bush bush bush"...

Then the 'Shi Naashá" part came.

Does anyone have an idea? Since this was in my childhood I'm pretty sure it had to be released in the early 2000s or 90s at latest.

I haven't made anything creative in years. I mean the last "creative" thing I achieved was asking what alien hominid's eyeballs taste like. But honestly even that isn't creative. I ask this for multiple reasons. The main one is because there is a writing prompt in my art class that asks me what I would create for graffiti and I legitimately have no idea. I just can't imagine anything anymore and I noticed this before but never had to deal with it until now when I actually have to create something.

How do you get more creative?

And I mean excluding internet games where you obviously pay for WiFi. Like if you were to buy a game on steam or something. Do you just not buy it at all? Do you stick with the games you already have that are free? Because I', on the fence about it but am leaning more towards no since I want to save up my money for things I may actually need in the future. Perhaps I should keep searching for a job because now the only means for salary I have is doing some chores for $5-$20 weekly.

I dunno. Just food for thought. Opinions?

I have no idea how a whole year passed by but it's my birthday again! So happy 22nd birthday to me ig. Honestly birthdays feel so...underwhelming usually. But to anyone that reads this: Thanks for reading!

Thankfully this year my family DIDN'T all come down with sickness (last Christmas they all got COVID). I went to my Auntie's place on Christmas Eve. We ate lots of Chinese food my uncle cooked and stuff. There was a lot of family. For some reason we stayed until midnight. I got money and a portable DVD player for my laptop since modern day laptops don't have the CD drive anymore. At least the ones I get.

So how was your Christmas/Christmas Eve?

Fam we're watching the same video. Why do people feel the need to summarize it in the comments section? What's worse is when they turn that shit into English class. "The symbolism is strong because uh uh uh their recalling this event or that so it's a reference...","This story really showed how the character fits/doesn't fit into the world", "This character looks angry.".

^ No shit that's what the writers were going for. Anyone with even paid the minimum amount of attention to the video knows this. Movies, games, books, basically anyone who has passed 9th grade English would notice most if not all of the things they mentioned. Why is stating something blatantly obvious so important?